收拾电脑深处的文件夹时总会被déjà-vu搞得心动， 因为这些久违的文件实在太经典了。 这些温馨的， 深邃的， 动人的， 杀气冲天的déjà-vu总是贯穿于我暗伏杀机的平淡生活中，起到了张晓龙的问候般的效果。 我很满意。

忽略其导致癫痫病的副作用之后，这就是现在和未来的力量之源。 用鲁迅的口吻来讲，这就是现在和未来的力量之源罢 ！

然而在天天叫喊”No more déjà-vu, please!”的Stanley同学那里，情况就大相径庭了。最近他开始质疑自己的一句有些年岁的口头禅：”When we jump out of the circle, we can see the bigger picture. ” 并不留情面地对这句话作出鉴定： 纯属SB。

然而正是一句对今天没有指导意义的废话，惊现在我多年前稚嫩的演讲稿里，并作为déjà-vu的主要来源正在激励着我背上的汗毛。Stanley其实早就在2003年慈祥地提醒过我，这只是一种手段，在危难时刻创造一种机会，可以让别人陶醉于文化的déjà-vu中而自己能够挤入智者群中暂时躲避两秒钟，皆大欢喜。

附上新鲜出土的21世纪初的21世纪杯稿子及音频以纪念刚刚另一种灵感的诞生。

Download: Well-rounded Education
Beijing University of Posts and Telecommunications, April 2004
Zhang Yan

Ladies and gentlemen,
I’m truly honored by the opportunity to stand before you on this special day, a day when I as an engineering student can express my special thoughts to all of you audience from a diversity of backgrounds.
Last October I participated in the Model United Nations Conference hosted by Chinese Foreign Ministry. I still remember vividly the scene when the reporter of Phoenix TV interviewed me after the conference. She asked: “As a student of telecommunications, why do you spend so much time and energy preparing for this political event?” I said: “To give myself an all-round education!” And the next morning, that reply became the headline of Beijing Daily, if not China Daily. It was entitled: “Science and engineering students seeking to be well-rounded.”
Yes, we want to be well-rounded because we are challenged. We engineering students take it for granted that technology is changing incredibly fast. We are thinking nervously and seriously whether our colleges are failing to provide a foundation in the skills currently needed in industry. Take my major telecommunications for example. Scientists say that 21st century is a biomedical time, not an electrical time. So the interdisciplinary exploitation serves as the critical part for our electric and electronics world to find new way of being.
Therefore, throughout the history of our university, researchers, educators, and students have been increasing connections among disciplines. We are proud of our REU program—Research Experiences for Undergraduates, which was established by the student union of our telecommunications school. We members are now doing a Cochlear Implants Project. In order to provide deaf people a hearing, we are trying to produce a bionic ear for these disabled. This artificial device incorporates electrical and electronics engineering, biomedical engineering, psychoacoustics and cognition science together. Through this project, we came to understand each other, we started to appreciate what we did not know, we managed to overcome differences, and we were motivated to travel in unexplored territory seeking new understandings of our world. In a word, we had witnessed the great power of knowledge collaboration. Students from different fields had regained their future opportunities because they know for sure that the interdisciplinary education is always there providing us with a broad stage to reach our full potential.
But the power of knowledge collaboration is not restricted to science and engineering. It is in the full community of learning. Walking around campus I absorbed a reality that there is a seamless web between students from different professional backgrounds. The engineering students are discussing animatedly in a philosophy lecture, speaking passionately in the public speaking club, and looking for sparkling ideas from learning history and arts. How wonderful that is! That, ladies and gentleman, is just a significant step forward to be well-rounded because once we jump out of the circle we can see the bigger picture.
Still in the Model United Nations, on the issue of the proliferation of weapons of mass destruction, the agenda passed a motion to urge the UNESCO to spread a new kind of education called Science and Engineering Ethics to universities around the world, which is a 1-year’s course first developed by our REU program last year. From the birth of atomic bomb to the cloning of humans, from the increasingly popular campus suicide to the immergence of new and more harmful computer viruses that are made by our university students. By illustrating and analyzing these cases, the course will strike every scientist and engineer’s heart that we can never be well-rounded talents unless we are engaged in healthy psychology and high moral principle.
Still, after participating in various political and humanitarian activities, it is still my greatest pleasure to find inspiration in the lives of scientists and engineers, as they have insight that can be generalized to any area of life. Let me end my speech with the Nobel Prize winner Li Zhengdao’s words: “The realization of the perfect combination of science and engineering, science and arts, technology and humanity, is the greatest symbol of a university’s success.”

纯粹

如果贝多芬让Jack Johnson去吃屎，你会抓狂吗？一种情况是你不给屎，也不给damn, 另一种情况是你愤怒。最后一种情况：如果你够纯，你一定会因此而兴奋。
----- 题记
(一)
在法国里昂上火车前，一个残疾人非常严肃地指着火车用法国南方口音跟我说：“你要上的火车是要用电的，所以这是电火车！每年都有很多人坐电火车！”
然后，他转向一个个踏上月台的人们，重复着同样的话。
别人都用鄙夷的微笑来回避他的眼睛，陆续上了车。
他回过头来盯着我：“他们以为我喝醉了，其实是他们不懂好的幽默！“
我严肃地说：“ 完全同意。” 登上了火车。
他坐在电动轮椅里向我用力挥手，渐逝在视线模糊的地方……我开始感动。

(二)
确定自己仍然纯粹或者搬着自己的脑袋向某一方面纯粹的最佳办法，就是一个人出去遛弯儿。这时候最应该让牛脑小爷们在家歇歇菜，否则一段天津相声，把浪漫气氛全毁了不说，还不时勾引来一箩筐自以为有修养的傻妞们，幻想着能流着口水就着星光坐在草地上听爷们儿几个吃饱了撑的用吉他伴奏唱英文歌。
北京的冬天，灰暗又阴冷的天，盖着堆满脏雪的地。黄昏时推开窗子，当嗅到一股淡淡的烧焦树叶味道时，那种令人心潮澎湃的力量吸引着我，这是一种大气，不是说不清，而是说清了要好几百年。哈哈，爷这就出去。
去雍和宫旁边的幽深的胡同里找到了那家新疆馆子，漂亮的维族女老板还是一个人在那里织毛衣。吃点串，喝两瓶酒，借啤酒的气打个饱嗝，直奔东直门去看电影。东方银座，老地方。东环影院，前天刚来过，还没出新片，那就再看一遍<<青红>>。这个放映厅只有我和一白种中年男人，丫坐在最前面, 回头望了我N多次。我在想你丫是不是找抽呢，看不懂就别来干瞪眼。
出来后，天已经完全黑下来了。然后去旁边的小商店搞一小瓶二锅头灌两口，搓着手，顺着鬼街走，这一段路颇长，几乎快到二环的时候吃个煎饼果子。说实话这家做的很难吃。为什么屡屡要吃？ 强迫症。
然后就一定要在这个路口打车，而且一定要去颐和园东路。下了车进了北大，往未名湖里扔片枯叶，对淹死在里面的所有除了名人的亡灵匆匆默哀两分半钟。
你们丫也有今天，怎么都隔儿逼着凉了？当时跟爷牛逼哄哄的……
然而我没有骂出来，只是叹着气，祝福着。这个角落黑得可怕。前方那片空旷的草地中央似乎有人在翩翩起舞，那姿态非常撩人，像两年前的夜里那样。我承认我仍有魅力，然而此时此刻正在做的事情不是凭借杀伤力去滥杀无辜，我在蜕去这层外衣，以便在毕业来临之际，作一回纯粹的北邮人。所以还是不去靠近。为了证明我的清白，我从包里掏出了眼镜戴上，绝然与圣罗兰早期设计风格不谋而合。让幻觉停滞在那里，被瑟瑟冷风冻结。
早点回到温暖的家里吧，跳舞的姑娘。别了。
夜很冷，晃到北大正门的天桥上，全是积雪，踩几脚，软得很！天桥那头，是一个瘦弱的影子，能想象她在漠然地俯视着下面来往的车辆。
我突然有冲动，就想冲她喊一句：“你丫不是说要跳下去么？”
呵呵。那不是你，那里谁都没有。这时的我很邪恶，很想回到那个时候把你推倒在地，再抓起一堆雪塞进你的脖子让你清醒过来！然后扬长而去。
可是当时我把你丫抱那么紧，却一点感情都没有动。纯粹是人的本能，一种对生命的保护，就像有时候把垂死的苍蝇用蝇拍轻轻捧起，扔向窗外。我把你最终成功塞进出租车里。
已是半夜了，人就像冰一样。在你被我塞进车的那一刻，我想对这些可爱可憎可怜的人说：“还我体温！”
我回去了，去一个能找到爱尔兰啤酒Guinness的地方----印象中总能把温暖的灯光，光头设计师，黑啤酒和活蹦乱跳，戴着钢牙的小姑娘联系起来。这倒不错。虽然幼稚了点，倒也不失为早期比较纯粹的一种状态。

(三)
又是一个夜晚，在地中海旁的度假村里，我独自踱步在小桥上，像所有童话故事的作者一样，狂妄地幻想把所有纯粹的爱都砸到一个浪漫的二人世界，然后生活就臻于圆满，世界就永远美丽。
每每与前辈们交流起成功的人生到底应该达到什么样的境界，都感到不管是之前还是现在，我太年轻，太天真，太浮躁。有一点是确定的，我依然要在精神世界不断追求纯粹，我要用生命写一本美丽的童话，谁都超越不了这种纯粹，给你。

Memories flashback in Changping

A campus in the village in rural Beijing.

Freshman year, the most precious year in college, a place where purity is exposed by untwisted original human nature.

People say(Not just within the IT industry): Men are made in BUPT. True, because garbage of various kinds is being chucked out. Noticed, after this long long 1st year, that all sophomores in BUPT(Downtown Beijing Campus) are all almighty? O allons donc, DOWNtown boys, UPtown girls, see those silly people around? Nique leurs Grandparents de tout le monde Univeritaires! Yes, they suck. Our faith is absolutely powerful. Because:

We know only science & technology can promote all.

The fragile poor world is within our grasp.

But the world is big and colorful.

Slow down and enjoy.

Proud Bupters.

Peace.

Out.

L'Auberge Espagnole

      

Généralement, l’Auberge Espagnole est un film très sympa. Ce qui me botte, c’est la description de la vie universitaire à l’étranger, qui convient parfaitement à ma propre expérience. Dans ce film, l’expérience d’Xavier a été complètement foutue. Par exemple : il a paumé sa petite amie en France malgré qu’il en ait et qu’il en ait bavé ; en même temps il a dragué une autre nana mariée qui était beaucoup plus âgée que lui. Même si l’histoire est le vrai bordel, l’Auberge Espagnole  peux faire piger ses spectateurs une attitude vachement positive, ça veut dire que les nouveaux européens qui bougent beaucoup aujourd’hui , rencontrent tous les jours les problèmes d’adaptation culturelles, linguistiques, morales, sentimentales, familiales, etc. Pourtant, bien évidemment, le film nous montre que tout le monde va s’accrocher et bien s’éclater dans un nouvel environnement, malgré les difficultés originaires de ses propres moyens et préjuges contre les uns et les autres.   Pour mieux vivre, il va falloir paumer des trucs traditionnels, sans être trop coincé, s’habituer à la mode un peu plus rock ‘n roll,  s’en faire baver, etc. D’après le film, la libération de la pensée et de la mentalité de ces jeunes gens a une tendance de bien permettre l’inexistence de la manière de connerie partout en Europe.